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My fasting and prayer worked well. I’m feeling truly blessed and even had some positive things come my way. I also feel better, probably helped to cleanse myself of all the junk that I put in me.

It had me thinking about my life – I spent a lot of time to talking to God – so led me to some self-reflection. Like holding up a mirror to myself. I felt like there was a disconnect.

People have one view of me and I have another one. They don’t really align. But the problem is that I’ve spent too much time believing or at least portraying the one others believe to be the true. And actually it’s exhausting living up to something you’re not.

For too long, I didn’t like what I saw in the mirror (not the superficial asthetics – nothing wrong there 🙂 ), but what I carried in me, or what people thought I was, yet I perpetuated it. I allowed people to judge the book by its cover. Not even letting them read the foreward.

So now that I’m a week away from my 3… birthday, Paulo Coelho‘s words can’t ring truer: ‘You may not know your path, but you must know what you don’t want in life’. I don’t want to pretend anymore. I want to be true to who I am. You may not like me, but you don’t have to. (How exactly is this my problem?)

Another thing I’m going to stop doing is explaining myself, I am who I am. We spend way too much time trying to please people, people that don’t really matter either. As we get older, we get more comfortable in our skins and less concerned with what others think.

This is another step in achieving my personal legend; re-inventing myself, or more appropriately giving everyone the real Cathy.

I finally got round to reading Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist. I’ve had the book for ages, but never really read it, never found the time to do so. Luckily enough I was flying from Zambia back to the uK and my ipod was broken! Anyway I probably read it at the right time, as I try to figure out, with the new year, where my future is going.

It made me realise that I do need to figure out what my personal legend is (which i think i know what it is) and make it happen. The book goes on to say that when you decide to follow your personal legend the universe conspires to make it happen, as long as you pay attention to the omens. As a reflective person, I felt I knew spot on what he was talking about. The last few months have been full of omens and signs. Things that I probably would have ignored if I hadn’t started thinking about my future.

And now that I’ve made the decision to follow my personal legend, I feel relaxed, happy and at peace. So well I’m going to carry on blogging about the issues I’m passionate about, sexual health and women’s issues, I’m also going to blog about my journey of listening to my heart and following my dreams. Hope you’re ready for the journey!